how i wish i can just let my tears go down.. but my heart becomes so hard that it never lets them away.. oo Allah please! i beg You.. just let them roll down my cheeks so that i will feel a lot better..
so much i have in my mind, so much i have to go through now, so much i have to worry.. i dont know where do i get this strength that i can just pass all my days with patience.. is it from you, My Lord?
how i wish i can just let my mom know all of these so that i don't have to worry anymore, so that i'll get a little srength from her (even though she will just nag at me, that's what i want)
i know this is the time that i have to become strong, the time that i have to be independent, the time that i will prove that i can go through every ups and downs strongly and patiently, the time that i will prove that i am really His slave, his abid and caliph..
and this is the time to find..
MUJAHADAH YANG TERSEMBUNYI..
bersabarlah hati, tarbiyyah Allah berhikmah.. =)
Patutkah manusia menyangka bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan dengan hanya berkata ‘kami beriman sedangkan mereka tidak diuji (dengan sesuatu ujian) (al-Ankabut : 2)
Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari kegundahan hati dan kesedihan,
Dan aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari sifat lemah dan malas,
Dan aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari sifat penakut dan bakhil,
Dan aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari lilitan hutang dan tekanan orang.
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