ni tak tau attempt ke berapa dah nak update this blog
i'm so jealous with rakan persejuangan who always have the ideas to update their blog. i want to but i always give it a second thought. people says, when you give something good a second thought, you will never do it again. yes, it applies to me.
ramadhan this time, is not as 'hot' as ramadhan i ever had in Australia. i could feel the differences. what more, now i am so full with school matter (practicum teacher la katakan)
i miss my dearest akhowat in brisbane, the time we had together, the activities we did together everyday every week . ukhti ramadhan, iftar jamaie, mosque hopping, hafazan.. ah, i miss all of them.
it's not fair to complain here since the situation and time are totally different now. (but, somehow, how positive thinking i have in it, i'll still miss brisbane and keep comparing)
ramadhan this time is also a BIG difference to me. it is without Mek. the last time i had puasa with mek was two years before, before i flew to brisbane. when i was in brisbane, i prayed hard to have another chance to fast with Mek, but Allah knows best. He loves Mek more than us. Mek left us on 13th July 2010 (Mek's last breath in Kuala Krai at the same time I was in 4 Maju class teaching them about dead leaves).
ah, a lot of things have happened to me this year. but i believe, Allah has really good reasons for it. hard to endure but the experiences might be beneficial for me in future.
school is okay. have been 'hentam' by parents few times. made a lot of mistakes. but one thing for sure, i know myself better. sometimes, i feel that i am not meant to be a teacher. it's just hard to get up every morning and go to school (as my routine). ah, how do i live this life for another 30 years at least! =) May Allah give me strength.
tomorrow i am going back to Kuala Krai. really can't wait. after 2 years of fasting as a foreigner in the land down under. have few dishes in mind to eat.. hehe. God, really can't wait. Thanks Allah for this feeling.
p/s: it's sooooo random..