I currently feel numb.. the call from Abah few minutes ago gave me this feeling. I sort of know where i will be posted since abah said my name is already 'in' that state's list. But the problem is, these few days of too much leisure had given me the not-so-good feeling for me getting the state. and Abah sort of gave me a hope (for past few days) of me getting another place (that i really really really wanna go). aahhh, seriously i don't know what to say, i feel like crying (but the tears just don't want to come out). pray hard pray hard.
who knows something might happen in the nick of time.
p/s: masih meletakkan harapan.