Wednesday, June 8, 2011

...pure ramblings from the heart that misses...

just came back from a brief get together with Yan (yes, she's another Izyan with totally different features to me.. hehe) my roommate back in ipba for 1 and half years, cum my practicum mate (meaning that, we were always sent together for both practicum and SBE) cum my state mate (ade ke??? she's also from Kelantan nd now posted back to kelantan, more specific, my district). wah, what a memory! we have been together for good 5 and half years (except the flying part, coz she went to UK).

nothing much to tell here, but i am sort of happy for getting the moment to chat with her like we used to be when we were students. and she's getting married. if i don't grab this chance then, it might be no for tomorrows. thanks Allah for making this happen.

ahh, talking about she getting married, i wonder how it feels when people who are close and dear to me are already married. i don't experience it once yet since those friends who married (and still marry to each other and will always be married forever) are not the closest ones. and i guess, the time will come when 26th of June comes. i'm eager for it to happen yet feel so lonely when i will not have the close friend of mine when i need her anytime. of course i have to make way for her husband to intrude during her freetime, right?? oh, izyan, you are so selfish... hihi..

i can't even imagine if those in the pictures below get married too though coz they are the closest.. not being with them for 6 months has been quite a dilemma to me. problems here and there, we are far to each other and yet i was being so selfish for always thinking of them everytime i need someone to hear and console me... so friends, S n F, let me get married first.. hehe... oh izyan, another selfish sentence!

back to the story of Yan and me just now.. it was so refreshing to talk to her about things other than schools and friends which was about our own self, our past and our present.. well, i just did this type of talking with her, S and F because it's just us who feel and go through the journey.. (at least, among my own clan, others may experience the same but they don't involve me). our past and our present were quite the same (since it will never be the same) and we were so free to speak our mind like no one cares which i really longed for. having time like this makes me appreciate our distance since, the time spent was so precious and it felt like it flew too fast and oh god, seriously i appreciate it.

i guess, it's the price we have to pay once we enter working phase. we'll be missing our dearest friends who work far from us and always pray and look forward for the next meeting.

p/s: oh yes, btw, 26th of June is not Yan's wedding date.. it's someone else.. (^_^)


pah said...

izy, based on my experience.

you'll only lost her for a while (at the beginning, where you'll (I'll) feel as if u r (i am) interrupting your best friend hour with her hubby).

however as time goes on, you'll know when is the right time to call and when is not. by then, you will not feel as if she is far and she is exactly the same person before she got married. because every time you call, she can entertain you.

still...there are ups and downs but you'll be alright! sooner or later, u'll get your permanent best friend too =P

izyanhamizah said...

thanks for the sharing kak... =)

Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari kegundahan hati dan kesedihan,
Dan aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari sifat lemah dan malas,
Dan aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari sifat penakut dan bakhil,
Dan aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari lilitan hutang dan tekanan orang.

::kind readers::