Living it the sad way

It has been too long since i last posted an entry, tu pun copy paste je. but i found it very useful. you guys too, right? =P

i think the title there already give a light how i feel right now. i'm sad. yes, truly depress with the life i'm going through right now. to the extent i want to change it in a blink of eyes. yes, i know, impossible. want it or not, sad or not, i have to face it and live with it. i barely live well as a single woman, in less than two months, i'm going to get married and next, only Allah knows when the kid comes, soon or later. 

i wish a lot of things these days. most of them, i regretted the decisions i have made and wished to relive my life. but, universe knows, no relive, no rewind, no undur perahu. just live from the decision you have made earlier. now, what i know is admiring my friends' lives which seem to be the life i want to life in. 

seriously, i'm down.. total down