...Pelangi Senja...

perggghhhhh, tajuk xleh blah weh!! thinking of writing a novel with this title.. agak-agak laku x??

=P

*angan-angan memang tak salah*

Lately, memang tak de selera bile tengok nasi (chewahhhhh, demand) 

seriously. apetah lagi bila bawah saji tu hanya ade lauk ikan (erkkkk, memang demanding)

so, this evening (about 6 o'clock),

I shot to Tampin

and 

this was what i got for my late lunch and early dinner =)

burppppp, alhamdulillah (xsopan sendawa dalam blog =P)

 BEFORE

featuring : Seafood Lasagna, Oriental Chicken Wings and Ice Lemon Tea 

(and yes, model sampingan - sos cili Life dan buku SOLUSI)

 AFTER

(abaikan tulang ayam seketul tu =P)

*.it has been long since i could finish all the food alone like today. big appetite indeed.* 

on the way back,

- pelangi senja -

adik- adik, don't try this at home

[amik gambar sambil drive, hanya drivers with lesen P (as in PRO) je boleh amik =P ]

this weekend is empty without TP

but, I'm trying hard to make the days worth living

Thanks Allah 

Sayang sama Allah sangat-sangat

...only Allah knows...

is it common NOT to get what you have planned 

and 

GET what you never plan? 

sometimes, when i'm out of my mind, i feel unfair for i truly put a lot efforts (prayers, tawakal and blablabla) to get things that i want

but

most of the time (read: always or 2/3) I DIDN'T get them

and 

if I just "went with the flow" (not 100% wishing for it, not putting so much efforts),

wallah,

the consequences were (usually, read: 2/3) something-to-be-grateful-of

so, which one should i resort to? 

...the long weekend...

the long weekend which should be great and exciting, did not happen that way.. 

and i admit,

we planned, but Allah decided..

Allahu Rabbi, You Are The Greatest and The Best Planner

(sobbing inside)

...Batrisya...

I've never once mentioned in this blog that i'm living with a baby, right? Oh, how can I forget to blog about this beautiful baby? 

Well, it's definitely NOT my baby (Please don't speculate!). She is my housemate's first baby. I've been living with them (my two housemates - who are siblings) since I lived in Malacca. The baby appeared last eight months, so she is 8 months old now. I'm as excited as the mother. hehehe (^_^). and yes, the baby is such a dear. 

Every time i came back home from school and saw this baby smiling, all the tiredness went away.. Something to be grateful, right? 

By the way, she's very active now. Crawling here and there, trying to lift everything she sees, suke sangat pergi tempat2 yang berwayar and one of her favourite places is, my messy room. Bak kata orang, pantang buka pintu.. Every time she sees the door open, she will quickly crawl as fast as she can. Maybe she is very curious ape lah yang best sangat dalam bilik auntie ni sampai aunties sukeeeee sangat lepak dalam bilik dia =P since she always sees me going in and out of the room every single day. pantang i open the door, kalau dia tengah breastfeed, rela stop for a while and throw a big smile at me.

eh, not only when i open the door, every time i pass her by, she would do the same.. oh, how adorable!! I feel like I have a little fan here (perasan). =P 

 it's my routine every morning before going to school  to carry her outside

(^__^)

budak ini dah jadi sangat berat sampai lenguh tangan nak dukung =P

But, having to experience this life every single day, I feel i'm sooooooooooo lacking if I were to get married and planning to have a child right after. Lacking of patience! Seriously if this baby threw tantrums, crying for things she couldn't do or take, or feel uncomfortable, I can't stand. Plus, I'm not ready to give up my beautiful sleeps (~_~'). You may think I'm childish and immature but I do take things into consideration especially when I start thinking of having a family. 

I admit I do feel jealous with my friends who are happily married and raising children (one of them just gave birth to the third son!!) to the extend if I feel it, I want to call Abah to marry me. But on the other side, living with a baby currently and see how my housemate is struggling with the baby, make me rethink. It may be nice to have the junior version of me but, to do all those sacrifices (read: sleep and the 'ME' time), I'm not ready. 

This is what I feel now, it may change in another minute but I blog this so I can remember that I once have this feeling at the age of 24. *single syndrome* 

I love kids, definitely and how amazing their presence are in times I feel down and sad. But, yeah, as I said, to have my own in this one or two years, I may reconsider.. (plus, the marriage doesn't seem to happen in near future) 

But, alhamdulillah I'm contented with my life now -with this little cutie - she seems to brighten my dull days.

(^_____^)

video si cenonet ni bila berjaya conquer bilik auntie.. adik, adik.. *sambil geleng2 kepala*

p/s: ....and I promised myself to live my single life to the fullest before the day Allah puts me other responsibilities (towards a husband and later, the children) inshaAllah..

...sunset...

in the car...

TP   :   Esok pagi nak cari sunset. tak kire.... dah lama xtengok sunset..
I      :   Sunset? (muka takleh blah - ala2 tak percaya)
TP   :   Ha'ah, sunset... (dengan keyakinan yang tinggi)
I      :   Sunset ade ek pagi-pagi?
TP   :   eh, sunrise (sambil senyum macam kambeng =P)
I      :   *facepalm* dalam ati cakap "planet mane la dia ni duduk ade sunset di pagi hari" 

just a laughable conversation to start this great long weekend

=P


p/s: public holiday for Malacca on Monday since 16/4 is the anniversary of Malacca as Historical City

*biggest grin*

(^___________^)

...today was like *************************************....

Please regard today was my bad day...

1) i misplaced my IC and went to a bank without having IC. (termalu di situ sebab tibe2 tercari2 IC dpn pegawai bank dan dgn selamba i said, sorry, ic saya hilang =P )

dah la risau aktiviti ko-kurikulum started at 3. but, at 3, i was still struggling on the road.


2) when arriving at school, i had to drive the netball players for friendly match at a school, 23 km away from my school (note: i'm the team manager). yang hangin nye, one of the passengers (my pupil) suddenly threw out sedangkan, i've repeatedly asked them "nak muntah ke tak, nak muntah ke tak" for thousand times (okay, exaggerate - but actually i asked them along the way) and for thousand times, the person answered "no teacher, no"..

dah tu, cun pulak muntah atas kusyen kereta. hangin satu badan kot.. huhu. alhamdulillah, there was still some patience and manners, i kept quiet (sedangkan dalam hati rasa macam nak stop the car and pelangkung je budak tu). when we arrived at the school, thanks Allah, my colleague helped me to clean the cushion (maybe after he noticed my muncung looked like a duck already!!). he bought febreze and kitchen towel (after he emptied my tissue boxes =P ). i owe you one, buddy...  

3) the games were hampeh.. huhu.. i felt like i trained them nothing. they played quite badly. ergggghhhhh.. not up to my expectation. or maybe i was the one who was at fault - for putting too much hope. full stop..

okay. full stop... i don't want to type any longer, or i am the one will throw up after this.


on a brighter side, i thank Allah for choosing me to be tested today - at least i 'istighfar' for the sins i did..

alhamdulillah ~~~

...somehow...

✿~ SEKUAT mana seorang WANITA cuba menghadapi DUGAAN..✿~ SETABAH mana seorang wanita cuba melalui UJIAN..
✿~ SETENANG mana seorang wanita cuba MENYEMBUNYIKAN KESEDIHAN..

Adakalanya, AIR MATA akan tetap JATUH BERGUGURAN di pipi walau dalam SENYUMAN✿~ SETENANG mana seorang wanita cuba MENYEMBUNYIKAN KESEDIHAN..
Adakalanya, AIR MATA akan tetap JATUH BERGUGURAN di pipi walau dalam SENYUMAN

~~~oh, my tears have been so cheap these few days.. i'm not that strong and always cheerful.~~~ 

~~people, you get me wrong~~