.. lupa nak tulis apa, apa lagi, bebel je lah..

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Alhamdulillah, sampai juga ke blog ni. tadi dah tersesat- sesat.. seriously, google plus makes me confused. sebab i currently have 2 active email addresses, one is the old one tahap2 dah boleh masuk arkib negara and another one is for more serious matters. ala - ala email rasmi la kan. yelah, kau agak nak tulis ke email address mcyan_cg@yahoo.com kat ruangan email rasmi. hahaha. memang tak la kan..

Actually nak blog something yang terfikir tadi, tapi sebab bengang sangat dengan google yang beratus kali sign in pun tak masuk2, terus lupa nak tulis apa. hahaha. apekah? nampak tak kat situ si penulis ni dah semakin tua... =P

rindunya nak menulis semula macam zaman remaja2 dulu. tapi hakikatnya, macam dah tak mampu. sebab kerja dah menimbun, kalau menulis ni mengarut2 kat sini, it means that, adalah baju yang tak berlipat. seriously respect lah mak2 yang buat 2,3 kerja tapi still able to maintain household. because, i am here ni, rasa macam dah tonggang terbalik. oh my, how i miss my carefree and single life... gedikkan? memang tak tahu bersyukur, masa single gedik nak kawen, dah kawen gedik nak anak, dah ada anak, gedik nak single balik. hahahaha. memang tak bersyukur langsung. okay2, bersyukur lah.syukur dengan segala nikmat yang Allah bagi up until now. alhamdulillah hi rabbil al alaminnn...

Nuha turns 15 months tomorrow. cepatkan masa berlalu. dan soalan2 seperti bila Nuha nak dapat adik dah timbul. hahaha. sabau ler makcik2. and jawapan standard, tunggu Nuha lagi besar. sekarang ni makin banyak akal, tak khatam lagi perangai yang sorang ni. tunggu la dulu... 

well, honestly, that is not what i truly feel, i mean, about having another baby alasannya bukan sebab Nuha. tapi sebenarnya, lebih kepada diri sendiri. i dont know how others do, tapi i kinda withdraw from being wife. hidup sehari2 ni, sejak ada Nuha, i am more of being a mom rather than a wife. sometimes, rasa sedih jugak, tapi tak tahu macam mana nak luahkan and to whom. before ada Nuha, i promised myself to love and care of my husband more than i love and care of my baby, tapi it's other way round. i dont feel like i am married to someone. entah, tak tahu kenapa. i wonder how moms outside can still be a very loving wife despite of anak2 yang ramai dan semakin bertambah, because i am not feeling it. should i be worried? jealous okay tengok mak2 yang still manja2 dengan husband walaupun anak2 dah ramai. 

yes, i think i should muhasabah myself more kan? well, i hope everything will be okay soon..

okay, mak dah ngantuk. nite2..

intai- intai

ASSALAMUALAIKUM WBT...

Dah lama tak bukak blog ni. sian dia dah bersawang.. sekarang baru tahu betapa busynya menjadi seorang isteri. hahaha ayat cliche. padahal macam biasa je. takde busy super pun kan? kalau kata masak, bujang dulu pun masak, kalau kata extra time untuk basuh baju, mesin basuh yang tukang cuci. so, ayat jadi isteri tu busy or takde masa? itu adalah ayat paling ntah apa- apa. hehehe.. 

entries jadi isteri pun takde la banyak sangat kan? now dah naik setingkat lagi. alhamdulillah in 6 months time, both of us akan jadi parents. inshaallah. =) baby inside dah 3 months. hajatnya mahu la menulis dan mencoret perjalanan proses yang best ni, tapi tak mau janji sebab selalunya tak berapa mampu dicapati ditepati. so let it be k? kalau ada mood and masa, i update k? 

2013 and 2014

ASSALAMUALAIKUM WBT...

sorry to myself for not being able to update about life constantly here.

now we are at tekam felda residence for fariena`s majlis bertandang. she is sure lucky sebab this place i mean the surrounding is so peaceful and greeeen. :-) Thanks Allah for bringing us here to end this year perfectly.

2014 is around the corner. some said it is going to be hard because cost of living is going high. i dont want to comment and explain here. everyone has their own perspectives so i'm not going to debate on this.

my new year resolations? i have a lot now. :-D and i dont contemplating much. after attending dr azizan osman's seminar, i admit, dreams are much needed. so, i'm going to dream high. because those can drive u where u want to go in life. DAO encourages us to write 101 dreams and i am writing mine. having to have dreams as goals in life, i can write my 2014 resolutions easily. :-D alhamdulillah. Allah memang mengikut sangkaan hamba- hambaNya. so, think positive and good k? i want to share some of mine.

1. perform solat dhuha, solat taubat and read surah waqiah everyday. inshaallah.

2. not easily get angry and encounter it with istighfar and syukur.

3. schumizy photography to have sales at least rm5000 per month.

that's all for now. wish to share more. let's see if i could come back and list them down. :-D

...hilang mood...

nak update blog, tapi internet super slow. kalah siput sedut. hence, hilang mood. sekian, alasan saya..

...J-Card Day...

Finally, school holiday is here... yeayyyyy!!! 

tapi this time bukan nak cerita pasal cuti, atau pun last day sekolah, tapi nak cerita pasal semalam..

Yesterday, I went to Aeon Bandaraya Melaka sebab J-Card Day. haha. second time pergi such sale event yang memang sangat ramai orang. I guess, almost everyone pun waiting for this J-Card day. 

Al-kisahnya, i tak tahu pun ade sale, thanks to my colleagues (Kak Huda and Kak Hasnor) for telling me. Kalau tak tahu, dah selamat duit.. hehehe =P So, sebab dah tak de apa nak buat, 'terpaksa' lah pergi sebab memang niat nak beli comforter set for majlis nanti.

From Tampin, we went straight to Aeon using AMJ. It took us about 45 minutes jugak sebab masa tu dah ade orang balik keje, about 4.15 pm. Plus, AMJ sangat kaya dengan traffic light. huhu.. jenuh menekan brek je lah. thank god we went by Mr. K, so tak de lah pain sangat nak drive. hehe.

Sampai kat Aeon, punye lah ramai orang tapi yang kelakar and stunned me was, almost everyone tolak trolley yang ade comforter set. hadehhhhh.. memang sah sale comforter habis-habisan ni. seriously, almost everyone siap dua tiga set sorang tuh. tak kurang jugak yang bawak bantal.. haha dalam hati, "best ke bantal jusco ni? aku guna bantal kekabu je" =P

masuk je Aeon, hah, amik kau, depan pintu berlambak bedding collections. patut la sorang satu. survey-survey jugak, tapi tidaklah ade yang memikat hati. I went in to claim the birthday present from Aeon counter and off to surau (tapi sempat lagi beli inari yang best =P). After Asr prayer, then we started hunting. 

huh, being me, memang giler lah bila dah sampai kat bedding section tu. tak tahu nak pilih mana satu. memang murah lah. i admit sebab kalau hari lain, memang mahal yang sampai tak mampu nak beli. lastly, we ended buying 2 comforter sets queen size. alhamdulillah. settle satu lagi barang wajib for the big day. memang saje beli awal- awal so that dah dekat hampir majlis tu tak tension sangat. plus, dapat lagi vouchers for spending more than RM100. boleh la guna nak something else next time. 

Gambar tadak sebab both comforter sets letak kat umah Mr. Fiance. Bilik i  kecik je. memang menyemak je kalau letak kat sini. =( 

tomorrow, abah, ma, li and yo will come here. *excited*

then, off we go to Johor. Abah la ni, teringin nak g Tanjung Piai kononnye it's the southernmost tip of Malaysia (padahal it's true pun!!). tapi risau pulak if it will be raining along the way. mesti tak enjoy journey tu. huhu.. tambah lagi, kalau banjir. i heard, johor dah start banjir. banyak dah pusat pemindahan dibuka. i just pray supaya we all tak stranded dalam banjir sudah. =)

btw, tomorrow is the reception of my friend. Zana, she is the security guard kat sekolah. she's my age. so both of us memang banyak share cerita. sangat banyak sepanjang setahun lebih my service at SK Tebong. and tonight, dia dah selamat jadi someone else's wife.. happy for her and at the same time, sedih for myself sebab i sorang je yang masih berjaya mengekalkan status bujang kat sekolah tu. huhuhu.. nanti, mesti si Zana tu cerita pasal her husband plak.. huhu. jeles3.. tapi tak pelah. sabar and keep praying. Allah knows what's best for me =D

ok lah. have to stop here..

till then. 

...Cuti Sekolah is getting here...

Terasa blog ini terabai (walaupun hakikatnya memang dah lama terabai). Dah tak boleh nak istiqamah tulis sama macam dok oversea dulu =P

Dah nak dekat cuti sekolah.. yeayyyy. Another one week to go. Sangat tak sabar nak cuti sebab tahun ni memang tahun yang memenatkan physically, mentally and emotionally. Sekolah memang banyak sangat aktiviti tahun ni. unlike last year. tapi tak pe lah, dah lepas pun. alhamdulillah berjaya buat most of the work dengan sebaiknya walaupun ada je orang tak puas hati. well, to err is human kan?? =P

Tapi hajatnya tahun ni, i'm going back to Kelantan a bit late sebab nak settlekan kerja kat sekolah dulu. huh, gigih sangat la kan nak bekerja walaupun cuti.. yelah, they're the clerical work that i have to do during school time, tapi sengaja dilengah-lengahkan sebab nak mengajar budak. well, i went to teaching college to learn how to teach, NOT to do clerical work so, that one can wait.. hahaha.. terpaksa la spend some time to do those sebelum bertimbun semula tahun depan. 

Well, Iroh pun nak convo kat Dungun on the 1st of December, so from the date onwards, I'll be in Kelantan untuk bercuti secuti cutinya...yahoooooo... Tahun depan mungkin akan jadi tahun yang agak memenatkan dan busy sebab i mungkin mengajar year 6 as well as being busy with the big day. Well, talking about the big day, people are busy making predictions. hahaha. since i never reveal our official date, ramai la pulak jadi tukang ramal. hahaha, ramal la adik kakak sekalian, yang tahu hanya Allah S.W.T. hehe

Let's stop for now. Till then...

..penah tak rase?..

..semakin banyak doa semoga Allah permudahkan, semakin banyak dugaan2 yang datang seakan menyukarkan keadaan?

=(

seriously, i hate this feeling.

macam mana nak let go ek?

i wish i could see the light at the end of tunnel soon.

: Perasan Much???::

oh, semakin lama, semakin kurang bilangan blog post dalam ~TINTA~ ni ye? 

hehe, the writer is getting lazier =P

btw, selepas dikomen oleh two stalkers tegar, I finally have to post something here, untuk mengubati kerinduan kedua- dua mereka yang agak poyo itu.

Basically I have nothing interesting to write about. I mean, my life is interesting but currently I am NOT enjoying my life so I just want the days to pass quickly without any footprint left. 

ermmmm, what else to say?

hey, yeahhh, I have something to show you..

 haha, ade rase nak muntah tak? =P

pretty? yes, I know I am (hahaha, perasan!!!!)

but thin and tall???? 

emmm, ragu2 di situ.

but I have to think like a small kid. 

so. the words are true.

I  am taller than her (a 11 years old girl)

and 

I am thinner than Adibah Noor

 

that makes me a tall and thin person.

yahoooo!!!!

p/s: seriously Izyan ni memang perasan.

and as a reward, i bought her sebatang aiskrim malaysia.. baik tak teacher???

*End of Entry*

...current obsession...

I checked my blog nearly every day (or two three times a day). it seems like I'm waiting for an update, which was supposed to be written by me.  trolololol. =P

how i wish blogger has this bluetooth thing that can transfer and translate everything in my mind into words. inventors, anyone??

i guess it's also a virus that i get from favourite bloggers (who i stalk) - they hardly write an entry in a month too


oh yes, an update? i get a new obsession these two three months, this time, my current obsession is

 

none other than 

this little sweetie,

Nur Batrisya 

(^_^)

 

 credit to AhmadSuhaimiPhotography

(oh, boleh hire mamat ni for wedding, engagement event ye!!) 

i think that's all.