...Birthday post ke- second... =P

Perggghhh, kate tak beriya nak sambut birthday, tapi post sampai dua. hahaha.. abaikan statement itu..

btw, i would like to express my gratitude to those who wished and prayed for me sempena ulang tahun kelahiran yang ke 15 25 semalam. sampai ke hari ni pun ade lagi. what can i say selain daripada thanks, thanks and thanks and i pray to Allah semoga Allah berikan segala kegembiraan di dunia dan akhirat kepda mereka yang buat saya gembira.. ameen. thanks all!!

sangat banyak wishes kat facebook. agak lenguh nak menjawab satu2 tapi i managed to reply all. alhamdulillah. hopefully tak de yang tertinggal. walaupun just through fb tapi nak taip "hb" (that stands for Happy Birthday) tu i knew i would take few seconds.i thank you for that. and those yang siap wish panjang2 tu apetah lagi.. sejuta lemon gembira you all gave me.. so, thanks again

Alhamdulillah, all praises to Him yang always knows what's best for me. Semoga umur yang dikurniakan ini berbaloi. maksudnya, buat banyak pahala, amalan dan hapuskan dosa- dosa yang ada.. ya Allah, berikanlah peluang untuk hambaMu ini menyucikan segala dosa supaya aku berjumpa denganMu dengan keadaan yang suci dari noda. Ameen.


p/s I: and as one of the present, i got the news that i passed my CPT (Cambridge Placement Test) phewwww. alhamdulillah. ^_^


p/s II : one of my pupils offered me a ticket to Safari A'Famosa as my birthday present. isn't she sweet? hehe.. gonna think about it. blessings.. ^_^

..Jubli Perak Birthday..

happy becoming birthday anniversary to me..

in emmmm, 40 minutes time. 

saje je tulis, padahal, nothing special pun. just to mark my age is already jubli perak.. 

yeayyy, dah 25 tahun. dah boleh kawen =P

tahun ni seboleh- boleh tak nak ngaku diri dah 25 tahun sebab rasa macam tua. 

tapi tak best lahir hujung2 tahun ni.baru nak masuk 25, lagi sebulan lebih orang akan address kite 26. huhu. umur dah suku abad lebih. sedeyyy2

honestly, tak de la best sangat pun or tertunggu- tunggu pun birthday ni. unlike others kot. sebab rasanya macam biasa2 je. memang la tahun2 lepas, ade je yang buat surprises, really appreciated their efforts tapi setakat tu je lah kan.. tak tahu lah kenapa i never look forward to my own birthday. sebab nya, hari2 umur meningkat kot. bukannya 6/11 baru umur meningkat sehari. dari hari ke hari, kita semakin dekat ngan mati. bukan hari je, even saat pun. pendek kata, yang paling dekat ngan kita adalah mati. we never know when we will die. mungkin kejap lagi ke? huh, amalan tak cukup lagi. dosa semakin hari semakin banyak buat.. T_T

semoga Allah masih memberi peluang untuk bertaubat.

tapi being 25 later scares myself. macam dah banyak umur sia2 buat benda tak berfaedah. i wish i was more productive. huhu. rasa macam still nothing walaupun dah 25. orang kata, 25 still muda, but i say, 25 tu dah tua. sepatutnya my ideal 25th birthday anniversary is with my husband, bukannya still single.. hahaha. boleh tak fikir macam tu? =P tapi nak wat camne, jodohkan di tangan Allah. He knows better than i do. 

okay la. malas nak bebel pasal umur. jom citer pasal my wayyyy earlier birthday celebration thrown by my beloved sister and that special someone last Saturday (3/11/2012)

Friends kat facebook dah tau kot yang both of them buat my surprise party. errmm, boleh call party ke? actually, tak de la sampai party. just a simple bbq masa hujan gerimis and 3 potong kek secret recipes je. simple sangat, tapi bermakna sebab memang surprise. how on earth Iroh from Kelantan boleh datang ke sini just to celebrate my birthday, macam tak caya pun ade gak. pastu malam tu, we went watching skyfall. pukul 3 pagi baru sampai tebong kot that day. huhuhu. 

walaupun simple but i thanked them for the thought and efforts. lagi bermakna sebab first time buat bbq masa hujan gerimis. boleh bayangkan tak? we all dok tepi pantai, bawah pokok sambil bakar ayam and at the same time, ade light thunders and lightnings. hahaha.. menakutkan jugak but alhamdulillah everything went well. drizzled je lah. tup pun lepas siap bakar ayam dah. thanks to both of you. May Allah bless ^_^

jom lah, i letak gambar sikit2 yang ade

 mereka memang selalu jeles dengan keremajaan saya.. hahaha

 sister yang paling best on earth. =P

 i set fire to the rain....

 nampak je sikit, tapi 3 perut berjaya dikenyangkan

 tukang habiskan tulang.

 yummehhh..

dark sky

the present from that special someone. thanks 

...Happy Birthday, TP...

Postponed post...

Okay, i know i didn't keep the promise i made in previous post. Sorry for those who really wait for new updates (macam la ade kan? =P) well, it's just a plan. We plan, but Allah decides. hehe.. 

btw, straight to the point. this post should be written no later than 26th of March 2012, or else it's already 'basi' but i don't have time right after the date. Millions of apologies.. 

okay, let's continue.....

well, on the date before 26th, it has been one of Allah's khalifah's birth day anniversary and i celebrated it with this person and be with TP (read: this person) almost the whole day. 

some of you may ask, what is so important about TP that i would spend my day with TP?

 indeed TP is very important to me. TP has been the one who knows most things about me and the most precious is TP will always be by my side, no matter what - through my thick and thin, ups and downs. Alhamdulillah, i'm really grateful to still have such person in this stage of life. (^_^)

what we did on that day?

for the first time, i took pictures for everything we did. i just want to freeze the moments and make them my "things i should remember" once i grow grey hair. back to the question (excuse my go-around-the-bush =P), we did not have much activities done on that day. the quality time together did count. we started off having lunch at KFC. opps not we but only TP. TP hadn't got the lunch so we went to feed the stomach first or else, we started to "go crazy". Then we headed to Tanjung Bidara, the place that i wanted to go (errkk even though it was TP's birthday but i chose the place =P). 

we spent most of the time there sitting on the rock and chit- chatting about our life. we walked along the beaches and enjoyed watching peoples around. we performed asar prayer at the prayer room there since we decided to wait for the sunset. along the way, we bersembang, bersembang dan bersembang lagi, laughing, taking pictures, sharing great stories about ourselves, sharing dreams and whatnot. (^_^)

 Tanjung Bidara, Melaka

 kat melaka orang panggil 'Long Chan' which in Kelantan we call it Sarsi Malaysia (rasenye la~~~)

When the sun was about to set 

When it was about maghrib time, we went to Jusco Ayer Keroh for the dinner. prayed Maghrib there, thanking Allah for the blessing He bestow upon us. I treated TP at Johnny's Restaurant since it is our favourite restaurant in the meantime. over the scrumptious meal, we chatted and chatted and chatted again - non stop. I sneaked out to Popular to buy TP present as well as the cake (just a slice of Chocolate Indulgence cake from Secret Recipe). I had to do it since before the date, i really did not have time to go out and find for presents.

it was spoon licking good =P

at first i wanted to buy us rings but sadly, i did not know the size of TP's ring finger. will find out sooner or later. hehe.. inshaAllah. so, i ended up buying TP a Quran with Malay language translation of meaning since TP did not have one. i remembered one of my friends once told me, if you love someone, give the person something precious such as quran, books or other things that help the person be someone better. seriously, i love TP and i gave TP a quran for TP will be someone better each day (inshaallah) and read quran with at least slight understanding of what Allah says in the Quran. =) 

since we had another 2 hours before the clock ticked 12, we decided to finish off the day at MBMB while we recapped the ups and downs we went through in past days. subhanallah, i was (and still am) grateful that Allah sent me TP in a place where i need support most. i thank Allah for that and each day i'll learn to appreciate TP more and more. (^_^)

then, after 12, i sent TP home.


~the end of the day~


alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah, the day went amazingly beautiful for us even though it was simple.

to TP: this post is absolutely yours and I will always remember you and your kindness every time i read this. I hope you enjoyed the day, felt happy and appreciated as much as i enjoyed mine (since i worked hard to plan this =P). so, for your note, please keep in mind that someone has ever celebrated your birthday to show how important you are in her life. then, you have no reason to mention 'No one ever celebrated my birthday since i was born'

TP, Thank You For Being Born 

(^_^) 

  p/s: please don't ask me why I use TP not the name or the gender of the person. This person is just so special that i don't want to share with others even the name. 

...missing youse..

i miss you guys so much. enough said.

...recent updates...

It has been quite some time, right? 11 days without any entries, not bad. i still can restrain myself from writing despite of plenty of free time. hehe. but i do miss to blabber here. by the way, let's start with recent updates about myself.

1. just came back from dusun eco for Jalinan 2011. and alhamdulillah wa syukurillah, i am glad, i could see lots of familiar faces there.. aside from 'charging' the iman. seronok that i don't have words suitable to describe the feelings. really grateful for Allah still choosing to be among these great people and i believe, i am stronger and more confident on the 'path' i have chosen last 2 years.

2. posting ~~ the most annoying thing to be thought of. but i just can't take it out of my mind. the super duper latest news is the posting for primary school will be made known in february. okay, i have another month of 'not teaching moments'. ada sapa2 nak offer saya kerja???

3. currently being a very successful house wife helper . masak, kemas rumah, drive, beli barang dapur. but, i'm glad, at least i have things to do. to my surprise, bukan nya best pun duduk rumah. patut la one of my aunties who is a housewife, sibuk-sibuk nak cari kerja, in which dulu i really wish, i can be one, so tak yah susah2 and penat2 macam jadi cikgu. tapi actually, letihnya macam orang kerja juga. wake up in the morning and still have to sleep late at night. (tapi dapat extra nap in the afternoon, hehe) to think on the brighter side, this is the only time i can help my parents doing household chores, who knows in future, i don't have time to look after the house at all. this is the time to make up times that i missed when i left for Australia. (^_^)

4. happy birthday to ma, idah and cik aya.. they are the january babies oldies in my family. and not to forget, Abe... (^_^) may Allah bless you and your life. alhamdulillah, this year, Allah granted me the chance to celebrate their birthdays which i haven't done for 6 years.

5. and lastly, i HATE SMOKERS (ni off the updates lah). haha, tiba- tiba pulak. it's not that sudden la actually. last night i was at Hentian Putra waiting for the bus. tension super and i really really felt like crying sebab udara tak segar. right left everywhere, bau asap rokok je. please la smokers, Allah dah ciptakan kita, manusia dengan sebaik- baik ciptaan, why on earth you transgress the title that Allah, the Creator himself has given us? guys, especially, by smoking, you definitely are not impressing us, women (diseru kepada lelaki miang yang nk ngorat by hembus asap rokok kuat- kuat). makin benci ada lah.. nak tegur sorang2 yg hisap rokok kat situ melampau la pulak kan? yelah, it's human right. by the way, we, the non- smokers ada lagi tinggi right tau. you guys hisap rokok tu, membahayakan kesihatan non- smokers jugak. please, love yourself and people around you. love the times that Allah has given you. Allah bagi umur panjang so that we can keep on being loyal slaves and khalifah. ni umur Allah bagi dah la tak berapa nak panjang (umat nabi muhammad ni, xde la hidup sampai 1000 tahun kan? 100 tahun pun 2,3 orang je) so, why do you guys keep on berusaha nak 'pendek'kan lagi usia tu? dah banyak buat amal kebajikan ye? i'm sorry to the smokers yang mungkin tiba- tiba stumble upon this blog and happen to read this, but, i don't have any other means to say that you guys.  

okay, dah habis recent updates. 

..Officially 23rd...

I'm officially 23rd... alhamdulillah (even though the post is already 3 days late =p )

it's nothing to be proud of being 23rd. since i haven't become someone like Sultan Muhammad Al-Fateh, who opened Constantinople in such a young age (if i'm not mistaken 23 years old). because, right now, i'm just a future teacher (if i pass my SPP interview next week). just a future, not a teacher yet.. so really, i am nothing to boost for being 23 =P

but actually, it's worth grateful to Allah S.W.T for giving me a chance to live this life until 23 years (and 4 days) and for blessing me with all the nikmats that i never asked for.

being 23rd reminded me of all the ups and downs that i went through in life. 2010, nothing to be proud of. i lost one of my loved ones. someone who was and (will always be) dear to my heart and soul, Mek.

2010, i also lost someone who really took care of me since i was born even though i have no close blood relation to her, Long. this year was the year of tears and hardships.

my life is different from the one i had before i flew to Australia. Raya Puasa was dull without Mek. No more Mek's friends came over to the house to 'beraya' together. Ma refused to go and visit neighbours. Adik- adik and me just went to only one house for the ziarah. seriously, it was totally different. not 'meriah' at all. Raya Haji, Ayah (mek's husband) planned to get married again. with someone younger than Ma. But, it was called off for few illogical reasons. and Raya Haji, there's no Qurban. I mean, my family will not buy any bahagian of the lembu and we will not be eating the fresh meat, perut, limpa and so on. which last years, every year was so 'meriah' and they never missed the Qurban.

I miss Mek so much and i always hope that i will have someone in future who can treat me like Mek did; cooked me my favourite dishes, spent time to tell me sejarah keluarga, nagged at me when i didn't call for quite some time, slept with me, listened to my rumblings, adviced me, told me to be patient and so on. Oh Allah, i really miss her big time.

but, Thanks to Allah for setting my path that way. You still give me chance to be with my other family members. Can't imagine if You take them all at the same time. at least, now, i'm more open and honest with my mum and we are closer compared to before. (^_^)

Thanks Allah for reminding me that living in this world, is not forever. It's just a stop. for a while. to get as many bekalan as we can and bring them to the final destination, akhirat. life and death are meant to be the tests for us. as clearly stated in the quran

"Blessed is He in Whose Hand is the domination; and He is Able to do all things. Who has created death and life that He may test you which of you is best in deed. And He is the All-Mighty, the Oft- Forgiving." (67:2)

yes, life and death, so that He can determine, which of us is the best in deed.

so, being 23rd, i am closer to death, to the extend that i'm super close to becoming a corpse rather than becoming a teacher.

Thanks Allah for still choosing me to be in this path, it's been two years and definitely, being an "ukhti" in Malaysia is harder compared to in Australia =)

and Thanks Allah for sending me great sahabiah who always be with me ups and downs. Love you fillah, babes!!

...Selamat Ulang Tahun yang Pertama...

Semalam, 6 November 2009, saya menyambut ulang tahun saya yang pertama. bukan yang pertama di dunia, tetapi ulang tahun pertama berada di atas jalan dakwah dan tarbiyyah ini. Walaupun bukan genap setahun (i.e. saya mendapat tarbiyyah earlier than 6 November 2008), saya letakkan tahun 2008 sebagai milestone untuk mengira langkah- langkah saya di atas jalan ini.

Alhamdulillah, tiada kata yang boleh diucap, melainkan alhamdulillah kerana Allah masih memilih saya bersama di kalangan akhowat- akhowat seangkatan. namun saya sedar, setahun itu masih bukan kejayaan, kerana hakikatnya diri ini mengharap di jalan ini nafas terakhir dihembus. tetapi, syukur itu juga perlu, supaya nikmat ditambah- tambah lagi.


Nilaiku bukan satu undi


bila diri berada di atas jalan tarbiyah dan dakwah ini, nilai undi kita bukan lagi satu. malah berganda- ganda.

bayangkan, seorang yang mempunyai fikrah agama yang solid dari al- Quran dan sunnah dapat menarik beberapa orang untuk diberikan kebaikan, kefahaman agama yang sebetulnya. hakikatnya orang yang mempunyai ilmu dan kefahaman, tidak akan menghentikan apa yang difahami itu hanya setakat dirinya sendiri. ilmu dan kefahaman itu mesti dialirkan kepada orang lain supaya kebaikan itu dapat dikongsi bersama. dan bayangkan jika kita dapat mengalirkan ilmu itu kepada seorang, memahamkan mereka tentang risalah ini, seorang itu akan teruskan perjuangan bersama- sama dengan kita untuk menarik seorang lagi untuk diberikan kefahaman yang sama. itu hanya seorang, jika ada yang berkemampuan, mungkin lebih ramai boleh ditarik, yang dikalangan yang ramai itu, lebih ramai yang akan ditarik.


Formula ini juga yang digunakan oleh Rasulullah SAW untuk mengislamkan dunia. bermula dari seorang, dan akhirnya ramai sehingga mencapai 2/3 dunia.





jadi, betapa bernilainya diri kita sekiranya kita memahami agama ini dan berusaha untuk menyebarkannya. beruntunglah sesiapa yang memilih untuk berada di jalan tarbiyah dan dakwah ini. tetapi hakikatnya jalan ini bukan senang. bak kata orang yang berpengalaman, jalan dakwah tidak ditaburi bunga mawar, tapi penuh dengan duri. susah, memang susah.

Lagi susah nak tarbiyah diri sendiri. ramai yang gugur kerana memilih untuk kalah dengan pertarungan nafsu. apatah lagi untuk buat dakwah. nak seru orang buat kebaikan dan tinggalkan kejahatan. hendak berhadapan dengan orang yang banyak kerenah, memang memenatkan dan makan hati. apatah lagi hidup di dunia yang memang banyak 'grey area'. tetapi jalan susah itu jugalah yang terbaik. malah, memang diiktiraf oleh Pencipta kita sendiri.

“Siapakah yang lebih baik perkataannya daripada orang yang berdakwah (menyeru) kepada Allah, mengerjakan amal yang saleh, dan berkata: “Sesungguhnya aku termasuk orang-orang yang menyerah diri?” (Fushilat (41): 33)


jadi, apa lagi kita nak selain diiktiraf menjadi orang yang 'terbagus' ucapannya?



Dan mungkin ada juga yang fikir,

"saya nak tarbiyah je lah, tak nak buat dakwah sebab dah ramai orang yang buat, lagipun rasa tak layak, alah, kalau saya tak buat pun, saya tak tarik sorang je. kalau rugi pun, rugi sorang je.."


pernah tak terfikir macam ni? anda pasti ke anda hanya akan hilang seorang??

honestly saya juga pernah terdetik di hati, saya hanya akan hilang seorang, tetapi hakikatnya inferens saya salah.


jom kita fikirkan.


hakikatnya, kita tertarik kepada dua tarikan, tarikan syariat dan tarikan syaitan. jika kita tidak tertarik kepada tarikan syariat, definitely kita akan terdedah kepada tarikan syaitan.


jadi, bayangkan tadi, jika kita tidak menarik seorang itu ke arah kebaikan, orang itu akan ditarik ke arah perkara sebaliknya. dan seorang itu akan menarik at least seorang dan mungkin lebih ramai ke arah perkara yang tidak syarie itu. jadi, kita pula menjadi sebab pihak musuh mempunyai lebih ramai pengikut.

jadi, adakah kita hanya hilang satu je??

worst than that, kita yang menyumbangkan ahli kepada pihak musuh dengan cara kita hanya berdiam diri dan memilih untuk 'membaikkan' diri seorang diri.

see, separuh dari itu, hilang..

jadi, apa tindakan kita? diam atau bertindak?


"tarbiyah dan dakwah" jahiliyah sedang bergerak, tarbiyah dan dakwah kita?


sekadar perkongsian ilmu dan tazkirah kepada diri sendiri terutama- tamanya..

..sedarlah, dirimu bukan satu undi...

jika harimau mati meninggalkan belang, biarlah aku mati meninggalkan Islam.

sumber:
Perbentangan Tarbiyyah & Kehidupan: Kejelasan terhadap dakwah dan tanggungjawab diri sendiri. K.A