...my new life in my new place...

Alhamdulillah, finally i can go online again, after a week 'fasting' (fasting internet je). i am currently busy adapting with my new way of life, new routine, new crowd, every thing for me now is new.. a lot to say and record in this blog but i just don't know how and where to start... so, let it be in point form, so it's easier to say the gist..

1) i am now living with a family from Kelantan and they are very very very nice.. cook good and delicious things (there goes my dream to lost weight)

2) i have a car (kereta ehsan my family) but, it's enough to cope with my eagerness to visit places around

3) i get to teach my subject and also not-my-subject.. English Language for year 1, 2 & 4 and Living Skill for year 4. My school is just a small school with around 100-ish pupils and currently 19 teachers. and yes, only one class for each year.. average pupils in each class?? not more than 30 and my year 1 and 2 are below 20 pupils.. how good is that?? ~~ñgee~~ wide grin

4) ... and my year 4 pupils are very eager to see me more than once per day. they even asked me for extra classes in the evening during our first encounter.... ~~herk~~ and everyday they keep on bugging me with "teacher, bila kita nak buat kelas tambahan ni?" yeah!!! that's the spirit guys.... (even though the teacher kept on answering, "nanti I fikir" because right now i still have to complete few administrative works)

5) the ex-headmistress, during our meeting of her farewell party, was very glad that sk tebong got two teachers with English Language option. before this, she is the only one b.ed tesl teacher in the school. but, she's kind of disappointed for not to be able to collaborate with us. (me too, puan)

6) i know it's not important but i still want to write here, i'm the only woman teacher who writes 'single' in the marital status.. how sad is that? (i have no companion to go out with, except a teacher who is engaged and soon-to-get-married)

7) SK Tebong is 30 minutes away from Malacca Town, 15 minutes from Gemencheh, Negeri Sembilan and 30 minutes from Tampin, Negeri Sembilan.. and i do my shopping in N9. so, i'm two-timer.. Malacca cum N9... hehe  

that's all i can tell in the meantime. will continue updating this blog as much as i have the time..

...posting post V...

cerita posting yang tak habis habis...

i called JPM for the second time. it was to reconfirm my school. kot salah dengar. because there is another school that nearly has the same sound. sk pegoh.. so, sk pegoh and tebong sound agak similar. pegoh, tebong, pegoh, tebong...hehe.. shockingly, i knew news yang kelakar amat. don't want to reveal the news though but it was so funny. ada salah faham about my status. but, dalam funny2 pun, scared jugak. yelah, it is related to my status kot. kalu status pun boleh tertukar2, apatah lagi benda2 lagi.. oh ye, status tu bukan status bujang, duda, janda whatsoever tu tau.. yang status tu dah betul dah (kot!!) this is status lain. =) 

currently, i'm reluctant to leave k.krai.. sangat berat hati.. seriously, i'm having the same feeling when i was about to fly to Brisbane. i'll definitely miss ma and Idah (sebab selalu spend time with both of them), i'll miss my routine (masak breakfast to ma, abah and yo and sometimes, bekalkan nasi goreng.. macam mak mak kan? hehe) i'll miss fetching ma and yo at school everyday and lepak2 kat bilik ma talking to teachers around. i'll miss jadi driver to ayoh and mok su if they want to go to the bank.. ah, definitely i'll miss my leisure life in my own bubble. selesa kot, sume ada, kereta, makan minum ditanggung.. sapa xnak kan?

tp bila fikir balik, alasan2 rindu tu sebenarnya adalah sedikit, yang banyak nya ialah perasaan takut to go to a new place yang definitely far from the comfort zone, dan perlu bersusah payah, bina kehidupan baru. itu je alasannya. 

to think positively, my school is still way better than any school if i were to be posted to sabah and sarawak. at least i don't have to naik belon to reach home. ya Allah, berikanlah kesabaran kepadaku, kuatkanlah hatiku untuk menerima takdirMu. 

i can still remember my naqibah said to me when i was in Brisbane, lebih kurang macam ni.. tawakal, tawakal jugak, tapi jangan lupa untuk doa supaya Allah lapangkan dada kita bila mendapat keputusanNya nanti...

betul kan? kadang- kadang (frequently happen to me) kita cakap je kita tawakal dengan apa- apa ketentuan yang Allah berikan pada kita lepas kita dah meletakkan usaha secukupnya, tapi dalam tawakal tu, kita sebenarnya berharap Allah bagi kepada kita apa yang kita nak.. 

dan bila Allah bagi keputusan yang lain dengan apa yang nak, hati sangat susah nak terima dan redha..

jadi, dalam pada tawakal, kena ada konsep redha dan lapang dada dengan ketentuan Allah..

tazkirah untuk diri saya sendiri lebih- lebih lagi di masa sekarang.. 

...posting post IV...

okay2.. since ramai orang yang tanya soalan ni and dah tak larat nak reply kat fb, let me make this clean & clear here... 

is Malacca my choice??

Yes, Malacca is my choice (really really really want to be posted to Ayer Keroh, actually) but i didn't include it in my choices for posting. heh??? confuse ke? meaning, i wrote Selangor, Pahang and Kelantan in my borang posting... but, i got posted to Melaka... (bila sebut posted je, teringat dibalut di dalam sampul surat, diletakkan setem dan dimasukkan ke dalam peti pos.. lalu diposkan ke Melaka.. huish..)  

remember this du'a?

'Dan berdoalah, "Ya Tuhanku, tempatkanlah aku pada tempat yang diberkahi, dan Engkau adalah sebaik-baik pemberi tempat." ' (Al-Mu'minun: 29)

dan mungkin ini adalah tempat yang terbaik untukku.... 

 

...posting post III...

wow, dah posting post the third. ermm, adakah ini bakal yang terakhir???

alhamdulillah. finally it's confirmed. it's confirmed that i got the state that has been rumoured before. 

bismillahhirrahmanirraheem.... dengan ini saya mengumumkan negeri pertama untuk saya berkhidmat ialah negeri 

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okay, i must say, i get the state i really want. but i never imagine that i will get daerah that i'm not familiar with. to be specific, the school is SK TEBONG, ALOR GAJAH. oh, i was hoping for Ayer Keroh, supaya boleh tengok a'famosa hari2. hehe.. (T_T) agak shocking i must say. may be it's because i forget that i CAN'T choose my school + district.. apa2 pun, Allah knows best.. (beriman dengan ayat 2:216!!) 

thanks Allah, the school has a website.. so boleh la usha2 sekolah tu, the headmaster (eh, headmistress la) and the staff there. it is just a small school with 156 students and 16 teachers (EMIS, Jun 2010). memang satu darjah satu kelas je. and the most important thing, it is categorised as luar bandar.. few friends said, it's memang sekolah kampung. yang betul2 kampung..(hopefully, not remote lah)  

so, how do i feel? am i okay with it? my answer, ok ke tak ok, i have to, right? it's not that if i'm not okay, i can easily change to the school i want.. kalau i anak menteri boleh la kot.. =) 

i have to take this as a challenge walaupun dalam hati sangat lah terasa takut nya. because i would have to start everything anew. build rapport, find new friends (yang boleh tumpangkan kereta.. hehe) and bla bla bla....

and, yes... here you go.. sume orang dah puas hati knowing my next destination?? (dah tak de idea nk tulis ape)

p/s: holiday kat melaka last year seems like a foreshadow for me now...