..Ramadhan Kareem..

Happy fasting, peeps!

May Allah accept your ibadah and mine..

Let's seek forgiveness from Him

Let's put efforts to get Lailatul Qadar

Let's do good deeds

My resolution for this Ramadhan:

1. to wake up every morning for sahur and Qiyam. inshaAllah

what's yours?

...jealousy..

hmmm, i think it would be wonderful to blog about our daily life, right? like my favourite bloggers who i love to silently read (read: silent reader) their blogs. 

I've been hoping (and trying) to blog about what i do/feel every single day/hour/minute/second, as much as i live my life everyday. because, i want to remember every bits and pieces of my life, how i lead the days, am i okay with this and that, how i go through every thick and thins that come by, how i manage shameful events in my life.. ooh really, how i wish!!

but, i just can't..

uh uh...

i guess, Dr Fadzilah Kamsah really said the truth. 

November babies are secretive... =P 

...i pray...

and keep praying every single day that Allah will give back my previous life...

is it too much??


(T_T)

...agony...

 how i wish i could write my mind ........

oh, sekadar gambar hiasan

...i wish i could...

there are few things i wish i could do right now

1. watch sunset

picture's taken here

2. dine in Seoul Garden

picture's taken here

3. watch great movies in the cinema

(errrr, no suitable pictures.. 

ahhhh, alasan)

but, they can't be done because of several painful reasons (T_T)

...seriously, what is our marriage basis?..

perghhh, tajuk kemain gempak - but honestly - it's a copy pasted article - =P

♥ Jika asas perkahwinan adalah kerana HARTA, maka pasangan bakal bercerai jika EKONOMI dalam rumah tangga merudum dan MUFLIS.

♥ Jika asas perkahwinan adalah kerana KEPUASAN NAFSU, maka pasangan akan selalu bertengkar jika suasana di bilik tidur tidak memuaskan.

♥ Jika asas perkahwinan kerana KECANTIKAN WAJAH dan tubuh badan, pasangan akan lari apabila rambut beruban, muka kerepot atau badan jadi gendut.

♥ Jika asas perkahwinan kerana ANAK, maka pasangan akan mencari alasan untuk pergi jika hati (anak) tidak hadir.

♥ Jika asas perkahwinan kerana KEPERIBADIAN, pasangan akan lari jika orang berubah tingkah lakunya.

♥ Jika asas perkahwinan kerana CINTA, hati manusia itu tidak tetap dan mudah terpikat pada hal yang lebih baik, tambahan pula manusia yang dicintai pasti mati atau pergi.

Namun,

♥ Jika asas perkahwinan kerana ibadah kepada Allah, sesungguhnya Allah itu kekal dan Maha Pemberi Hidup kepada makhluk-Nya. Allah mencintai hamba-Nya melebihi seorang ibu mencintai bayinya.






My future husband, i guess, i'm not going to marry you because i fall in love with you in the meantime (p/s: remember, i'm a grass, i may fall for someone else later - but, i'm going to marry you because of Allah destines me so. So, my love and loyalty will be yours till we live eternally in Jannah inshaallah and i want to be your "bidadari" forever.  

...first day of fasting...

Alhamdulillah, Allah sampaikan juga kita ke Ramadhan hari yang pertama.. hari pertama dah lepas, how about the second, third, fourth day and so on? May Allah still give us chances to seek forgiveness and rewards throughout this month. Ameen. 

...dear ~TINTA~...

dear ~TINTA~ ,

is this the time that i should do the istikharah to choose the one destined to me?? owh Allah, i'm so freaking out...

"Ya Allah, aku memohon petunjuk daripadaMu dengan ilmuMu dan aku memohon ketentuan daripadaMu dengan kekuasaanMu dan aku memohon daripadaMu akan limpah kurniaanMu yang besar. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Berkuasa sedangkan aku tidak berkuasa dan Engkau Maha Mengetahui sedangkan aku tidak mengetahui dan Engkaulah Yang Maha Mengetahu segala perkara yang ghaib. Ya Allah, seandainya Engkau mengetahui bahawasanya urusan ini adalah baik bagiku pada agamaku, kehidupanku dan kesudahan urusanku sama ada cepat atau lambat, takdirkanlah ia bagiku dan permudahkanlah serta berkatlah bagiku padanya da seandainya Engkau mengetahui bahawa urusan ini mendatangkan keburukan bagiku pada agamaku, kehidupanku dan kesudahan urusanku sama ada cepat atau lambat, maka jauhkanlah aku daripadanya dan takdirkanlah kebaikan untukku dalam sebarang keadaan sekalipun kemudian redhailah aku dengannya".

pic courtesy tara-west.com

...19 june 2011...

just for the note...

last night, i have made a very big decision that i believe, will definitely change my WHOLE life in future. all this while i have always been bugging the same questions, thought and hope but, all praise to Allah, for this "last night" He has opened to me the door of "answer" for all my questions... 

sangat susah untuk membuat keputusan sebesar itu, kerana dengan jawapan Ya

- ia akan mengubah hidup aku seluruhnya walaupun secara perlahan- lahan

- ia akan mengubah MASA DEPAN hidup aku, keluarga aku, dan aku harap seluruh keturunan keluargaku

- ia juga bermakna, aku mengambil risiko yang sangat besar.. mempertaruhkan segala yang aku ada...

tapi, jika difikir balik, jika bukan ini masanya, bila lagi??

pintu rezeki ini yang sekarang Allah buka, mungkin tidak akan pernah terbuka lagi jika aku menutupnya buat kali ini...

dengan jawapan ini, aku harap Allah yang Maha Pemberi Rezeki dan Maha Pemurah akan menuntun aku, dan memberkati segala apa yang aku lakukan.. Semoga ini hanya kerana Mu, keluargaku dan masa depan hidupku...

aku mulakan dengan lafaz, Bismillah hir rahman ni raheem....

 

*aftermath - 19 June 2011 - *

Semoga ia mengubah hidupku ke arah yang lebih baik.... 

...1431H/2010 review...

Warning : this post is going to be very very very long. and personal too..

semua orang dah sibuk2 melaung- laungkan, mengucapkan selamat tahun baru 2011. radio, kawan2, semua lah.. al- maklum lah, hari ni kan hari terakhir 2010. but for me, my new year has long passed. i mean, as muslim, i follow the new year based on the islamic calendar. (^_^). but unfortunately, masa new year hijrah that day, i didn't have time to do the review of my tahun 1431H. can i make them up today? because i sort of have the time and guts to finish a post for today. hehe.. for me 1430H ni meninggalkan seribu satu kenangan yang if i were to reflect back, ianya sangan menguji keimanan. banyak benda yang berlaku dan yang sebenarnya, ia salah satu cara untuk Allah memastikan jalan mana yang aku pilih. remember? surah as-syams

maka Dia mengilhamkan jalan kejahatan dan ketakwaan, sungguh beruntung orang yang menyucikan jiwa itu dan sungguh rugi orang yang mengotorinya (as-syams: 8-10) 

if you are one of my friends, you should know that last year 1431H/2010 was my first year of living in Malaysia as someone who has different lens and fikrah of islam. but i somehow shaken by the islamic view shown by the malaysians and even closer (and the most powerful), my family. all the things/knowledge that i gained when i was in Australia were put into practice. setiap dugaan yang menimpa membuatkan aku sangat banyak berfikir dan reflect balik dengan apa yang telah aku ketahui. dan memang benar, hidup yang menentang arus ini sangat sangat dan sangat lah susah. at times i win the games but most of the times, i lose. but i'm glad, jika aku 'ingin' dan hampir terpesong, ada saja cara Allah buat yang membuatkan aku masih kembali ke jalan yang aku pilih 3 tahun lepas. Alhamdulillah. 

tapi, to tell the truth, i love my life in australia... dan sangat2 rindukannya. pelikkan? kalau orang yang tidak pernah ke luar negara dan mendapat kefahaman tentang islam di sana, mungkin tidak faham perasaan ini. i am not trying to be proud or what, tapi this is truly what i feel in my bone. sangat rindu biah di sana.. sangat rindukan akhawat di sana. tetapi it doesn't mean i hate living in malaysia.. alhamdulillah Allah bagi kemudahan di sini untuk aku melapangkan dada dan menerima setiap kerenah sahabiah2 di sini dan juga 'masuk' dengan cara bekerja di sini.

tahun lepas juga, aku kehilangan someone that i truly love, Mek.. she left us for Allah.. semoga Allah menempatkannya di sisi para mukminin. dan disebabkan kehilangannya, banyak benda baru berlaku dalam keluarga aku. for the first time, raya aidilfitri sangat hambar, for the first time, kat rumah tidak buat korban.. for the first time, aku betul2 terlibat dengan urusan-urusan perkahwinan (my grand dad's second wedding) dari urusan merisik hingga ke hantaran perkahwinan, cuma xsempat jadi jurugambar je lagi. setiap dari peristiwa ini sangat mengganggu jiwa aku. alhamdulillah, Allah masih beri kekuatan walaupun, pada satu peringkat, aku rasa ingin memberontak..other than Mek, Long (orang yang mengasuhku dari kecil hingga besar) also left us. beberapa bulan selepas Mek passed away. =(

apa2 pun, everything happens for the good reasons.. Allah knows best..

as for the program, tahun ni i involved in 2 program yang agak besar, english camp di Rembau dan JIRIM2. masa ni sangat banyak kesilapan yang aku pelajari dan tak kurang juga banyak kelemahan yang perlu diperbaiki. i know myself better after those programs especially in dealing with guys. ergh.. i'm so bad with guys.. seriously and i guess i should learn more how to deal with them without menimbulkan apa2 fitnah. next program kena improve... it's a must...

study wise. alhamdulillah dah berjaya grad TESL.. now i'm waiting for the posting. ntah bila la dapat tau nye. for the time being, i killed my time doing sisa-sisa kerja untuk jirim and some preparations for jalinan. Alhamdulillah Allah takdirkan beberapa kerja even though tak termasuk dalam skop kerja dulu. so, there's no more reasons to waste my time doing other things. tapi sedih bila habis keje2 ni, dah xde benda nak buat.hmm, kena fikir keje lain pula nak buat ni. to speak the truth, i don't like living without doing nothing. sangat3 la xterurusnya hidup. that's why i hate excessive holidays. kalau boleh nak cuti sekejap2 je. sebab, masa lapang is my enemy. big time enemy.. suka hidup busy masa belajar dulu. at least, i don't have time to think things yang i shouldn't think of. kalau banyak sangat masa lapang ni, mula setan2 sebok2 nak menyimpitkan otak ni dengan kisah- kisah masa lalu. hish, that's what i hate most. dan memang benar, 

Demi Masa! Sesungguhnya manusia itu dalam kerugian - Kecuali orang-orang yang beriman dan beramal soleh, dan mereka pula berpesan-pesan dengan kebenaran serta berpesan-pesan dengan sabar. (al-asr:1-3)

kalau tak beriman, xberamal soleh, tak berpesan2 dengan kebenaran dan kesabaran, memang sungguh rugi lah hidup ini..

dan kalau sesiapa yang perasan, post2 saya for last year, banyak yang sempoi dan ntah apa2. kalau tengok dekat tag tu, banyak yang rumblings. saya banyak luahkan apa saya rasa dalam blog ini sebab, i feel at times, writing can give me more pleasure compared to talking to someone. at least, kalau tulis, i can read it next time.  no wonder la orang suka tulis kisah peribadi dalam blog ek.. hehe. but i'm not someone who like to share my stories publicly. cuma certain times, when i feel like doing so, baru akan tulis. 

hmm, sungguh panjang post kali ni. post terakhir untuk tahun 2010, if you want to say so. tapi tak tulis lagi semua yang berlaku, tu hanya sedikit dan antara yang paling banyak memberi kesan dalam hidup saya pada tahun ni. 

well, now is the new year 1432H and few minutes to 2011.. tak tahu what Allah has prepared for me for this year. tak tahu juga mungkin tak sempat pun untuk bernafas lama pada tahun ini. dan tak tahu juga nafas siapa yang akan terhenti pada tahun ini. apa2 pun i hope to cherish my life and i really hope tahun 1432H and 2011 is far better than 1431H/2010. i have something i want to do this year, and hope this plan is the same as what Allah has planned for me. kalau xsama pun, i know, Allah has planned something better to me.. 1432H/2011, semoga aku lebih tabah, semoga aku lebih tsabat, semoga aku lebih yakin dengan jalan yang dipilih. 

...another thing for today ~~ nice huh!...

I currently feel numb.. the call from Abah few minutes ago gave me this feeling. I sort of know where i will be posted since abah said my name is already 'in' that state's list. But the problem is, these few days of too much leisure had given me the not-so-good feeling for me getting the state. and Abah sort of gave me a hope (for past few days) of me getting another place (that i really really really wanna go). aahhh, seriously i don't know what to say, i feel like crying (but the tears just don't want to come out). pray hard pray hard. 

touch wood!


who knows something might happen in the nick of time.

p/s: masih meletakkan harapan.     

...again!...

This afternoon, my dad called and asked, 

if i were to be given 3 choices of states to be posted, 

which one would i choose  

Pahang

.

.

.

Malacca

.

.

.

Kuala Lumpur

..........................................................

Izyan, please patiently wait for the 16th of December sun to rise

  (tu pun kalu panjang umo) 

...hopes overload..

How should i say, ha? i'm kinda cuak right now. staring at the module that i have to finish by this weekend. indeed, the amateur like me should seek for helps from the experienced. but being quiet myself, doesn't help much though. i'm trying hard to give my best in this work. but i can't help to feel the nervousness. i'm not sure how the pihak atasan will view it, it's good or it's not good.

and

i hope this small thing i am doing right now, will contribute to the big dream that Islam wants.

i hope this 'cuakness' and nervousness are paid off later.

i hope this experience helps me to become better person.

i hope it helps me in my future.

....

--------

......

i hope someone understands me

hopes overload

...Going extra mile...

Izyan, you should go extra mile to get what you want....

Ada berani ka???

..update...

Agak lama blog ini ditinggalkan tidak berupdate. bukan tiada cerita yang ingin dikongsikan, sometimes, certain things are better left unsaid. bukan juga tiada masa yang boleh diluangkan untuk mencoret sekadar sepatah dua kata, tapi, ..... entahlah ada saja halangannya.

alhamdulillah selamat sampai di tanah air tercinta pada 1 disember 2009 setelah flight delay semalaman di Brisbane.

sempat juga menghabiskan masa bersama keluarga di Putrajaya selama 2 hari sebelum balik ke Kelantan.



Dalam masa itu, semasa berjalan- jalan di kota Kuala Lumpur, banyak sungguh perubahan yang aku lihat. Bukan perubahan keadaan, tetapi, perubahan fikrah sendiri. alhamdulillah wa Syukurillah, di sebalik kegelisahan dan kepedihan hati melihat umat 'terkeliru' dari Islam sebenar, sempat mulut mengucap hamdalah kerana akhirnya, mata ini terbuka juga, menilai sesebuah keadaan dari sudut kaca mata Islam yang sebenar.

jika dulu, aku juga berada di kalangan mereka. hidup tanpa hala tuju. keluar untuk suka- suka tanpa tujuan. sungguh, melihat keadaan itu, bahu ini terasa semakin berat, hampir 'terjelepuk' namun masih ingat pesanan Al-Muntalaq, hanya gerhana bukan terbenamnya matahari. masih terbisik janji Yang Agung, "Islam pasti kan naik kembali". hanya mahu atau tidak. semoga Allah teguhkan hati dan kukuhkan langkah kaki ku ini.

Itu 'dunia luar'. 'Dunia dalam?'. keluarga? adik- adik sayangku dengan zaman remaja mereka, zaman untuk membesar, mencuba, memahami dunia, sayangnya jika tidak diterapkan dengan nilai- nilai islami yang syumul. jika dilihat, 'dunia dalam' ini tidak jauh dari 'dunia luar' sama sahaja, seiringan, seacuan. ya, di situ tanggungjawabku sebagai yang sulung. semoga dapat menjadi qudwah hasanah kepada mereka. insyaAllah, slowly but.. improving.


sukar untuk melawan arus, tapi tidak mustahil. hanya perlu lawan diri sendiri, kerana masyarakat sekarang sukakan Islam. alhamdulillah, perubahan cara pemakaian aku tidak menjadi masalah buat keluarga malah mendapat sokongan. teringat kata- kata yang dikeluarkan dari mulut nenek tersayang saat pertama kali melihatku.

"Mek suka Yan pakai macam ni"

alhamdulillah. Kau telah memudahkan jalanku. Pendek kata, keluarga bukan penghalang.


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Rindukan suasana di Brisbane, rindukan Wafa', rindukan program tarbiyyah, tetapi, aku suka di sini, aku suka di sini, aku suka di sini. inilah tarbiyyah dan medan yang sebenar. peluang untuk 'membesar'. semoga aku terus wafa'..

..Wafa' - sudah rindu..

...and, i want to take it seriously...

Uni has started last week, and this semester will be my final semester in QUT as well as Australia. I have made few renewals of my resolution for this semester that I shall make it secret here. It’s between me and My Lord =). Amazingly, this semester, I am taking Teaching Reading and Writing unit as one of my electives which, the other is Story Telling in Early childhood. Basically, it’s (Teaching Reading and Writing) a unit that prepares future teachers to teach reading and writing for early years students as well as to be equipped with special skills and exposure on how to tackle the students who are at risk of reading and writing. Why I say ‘amazingly’ above? Actually, at first I was not keen of taking this unit as we (my cohort) are the pioneer of this unit after the cancellation of Maths, ICT and Science electives in our requirement. That’s the first reason, the second reason is, I reflected on myself who are not a good reader and writer myself. Therefore, I thought that if I took this unit, I might not feel confident and suffer for low self confident (hehe, penyakit dari kecik). And the last reason which I guess, turned up to be the major reason why I don’t want to take up this unit was, I may not be able to score high grade on this.

So, what makes me change my mind (well, I shall say it’s quite a sudden of changing my decision)?
There are quite a few reasons why I change my mind but the ultimate one is because of one of the ayah in Quran. Just a simple one, and I believe everyone who read my blog know this word.


Yes. It’s just because of the word “IQRA’”


The first word that was revealed to our beloved prophet was ‘IQRA’ which means READ. So, don’t you think reading is important? If not, Allah won’t ‘wahyukan’ this ayah as the first one above other deeds that we have in Quranul Kareem. And, the explanation from Ust Halim when he was here in Brisbane that day, made me more confident to take this unit.


Why?


As far as I could recall my memory, he said that, Allah asks our Prophet to firstly read portrays that knowledge is very important in our life and we can change our lives by getting much knowledge. Can you imagine or recall? In the time of Prophet Muhammad before he was not mandated as Prophet of Allah, how was the life of people of the Arabs? They were merely nothing. NOTHING in term of its civilization if compared to the civilization of Rome and Parsi at that time. Allah then, sent Prophet Muhammad to change the lives of the people in Arabs that (if we fast forward of this seerah story), the Muslims (pioneer by Rasulullah, an Arabs with his sahabah, most of them are Arabs) later became ON TOP OF THE WORLD (ustaziatul ‘alam) in the time of Abbasiyyah (if I am not mistaken, correct me if I am wrong). So, what changes this? It’s the word IQRA’. Why? Let we ponder ourselves. How does the knowledge can be gained? Undeniably most of the knowledge in the world nowadays can be found through reading. It means that reading is very very very essential to us if we want to success (raise up your hand if you don’t agree with my statement).


Long story cut short, if we look at our society nowadays (I believe that most of the readers if not all are Malay and Muslim), how many students who enter SECONDARY school (note that it’s secondary not primary) do not know how to read? I also believe that most of you will say, “yes, quite a lot” (if you are concerned about your friends in the last class!!). Sharing the story with my parents long time ago, they said that there was at least one class of the students (that means about 30 something) who entered secondary school DID NOT KNOW how to read. =(


They do not know how to read? How are they going to survive in this 21st century where everything that we want to do, we must know how to read? Even worst, we don’t just read from the old newspaper, but we have internet that everything is updated in super fast second. Don’t you think that they will lag behind a lot of the things?

And, straight away, at that time, I was so pitiful to them and my parents kept on discussing about this matter. Who are you going to blame if it happens to your relatives? I bet most of you will say, ‘the primary school teachers’. The same answer that I told my parents at that time. If you ask me the same question again now, my answer will be different as I look at this problem in more broad perspective. I will not solely blame the teacher, as I did when I was immature long time ago. But, I don’t deny that it might also be the fault of the teacher.


And it actually has answered the questions why I want to take up this unit. I don’t want to be blamed for not doing my job educating the children until they can at least read and write. This responsibility that I have is not just from the Malaysians, ie: the parents, the children, but, this responsibility is given by Allah to me. He has chosen me as His Abid and Khalifah of the World with extra nikmat of giving me the true fikrah and understanding of His Deen. If I am not the one who wants to take this responsibility to have extra work, educate the next generations, and bear all the pains, can I just let others who do not know how to read and write accept all of the burdens, ie educate the Ummah? The onus is on me and my fellow colleagues to teach the students not just bright students but also students who have disadvantages for example is those at risk in learning how to read. In fact, they are the ones that we should give extra care of.

I want Muslims to be the greatest Ummah of the world and Allah has promised that. What I (and also you) have to do is to sacrifice ourselves to see Islam as Ustaziatul ‘alam. You do your part and I’ll do my part, and if we are together with the same mission and pure niat, the success will be ours.

I guess I should stop typing now. I have another class after this. What I write here is something that I really feel at this very moment. I hope this same spirit will stay with me until Izrail comes and bring me to My Lord.

...Dunia?? Macam- macam ada...

This morning, for the first time since one year and half, I ‘ym’ed with one of my bestfriends, A (anyway, not my fault because I don’t know that she has YM). She gave me good news that now she is expecting her second baby. inshaAllah. Wa Alhamdulillah, am happy for her for the countless blesses that Allah gave to her. She is the first among my friends who get married early. Alhamdulillah. Allah saves her from the ‘maksiat’ and all.

But, what shocked me was actually, currently A is taking care of her sister-in- law who is diagnosed with mental illness (erm, is it the same with sakit jiwa? Because A told me her sister- in- law is diagnosed with sakit jiwa). I felt really sorry for her sister – in- law and at the same time respect A for being such a nice carer. May Allah reward her with good rewards. I eventually asked A, how was that happen? I mean why her sister-in-law is diagnosed with such illness. And A said that she has been in that situation since she was 15 and now she is 33 and it was actually because of “ayah dia tak bagi dia couple dengan bf dia” and I was like……………………………….


CLUELESS…..


Innalillahuwainnailaihiraji’un. DariNya kita datang dan kepadaNya kita kembali. Astagfirullahalazeem. I didn’t know whether it was a good expression and feeling that I should have at that time. But that was what I felt and said (not to A, it just happened in my heart).


my Ummah.. my Ummah. What has happened?


Sakit jiwa because of the father was trying to save her from a big sin?

I know it may be the test for her and I pray to Allah that He will guide this sister to the right path and to know which is right and which is wrong. I pray to Allah for He shines her and our lives with His rightful path and keep us away far from zulumat and wrong path.


My dear sisters in Islam, Allah is the one who surely loves us. So, love Him back. Do as what He wants and save your feeling to the right man. The man who loves Allah and loves you and He loves you too because of Allah.

and he is not the man who touches you, brings you out for a date, says sweet words and promises before he says "Aku terima nikahnya"

May Allah guide us to the right path.

May Allah guide us to the right path.

May Allah guide us to the right path.

"No Love Is More True Than The Love Between The Creator And The Humble Slave"

(new tagline from Facebook- I LOVE ALLAH group)

and Alhamdulillah, All praise to Allah, the Lord of the World who saves me from the zulumat and brings me to Nuur.. please please please.. i beg you, don't let me fall into the black zone again..

..Ya Allah, tolong sampaikan pada dia..

Tolong sampaikan pada si dia…

Tolong beritahu si dia aku ada pesanan
buatnya..

Tolong beritahu si dia, cinta agung
adalah cintaNya..
Tolong beritahu si dia, cinta manusia
bakal membuatnya alpa..

Tolong nasihati sia dia, jangan
menyintaiku lebih dari dia menyintai
Yang Maha Esa..
Tolong nasihati si dia,jangan
mengingatiku lebih dari dia mengingati
Yang Maha Kuasa..
Tolong nasihati si dia, jangan
mendoakanku lebih dari dia mendoakan ibu
bapanya..

Tolong katakan pada si dia, dahulukan
Allah kerana di situ ada syurga..
Tolong katakan pada si dia, dahulukan
ibu bapanya kerana di telapak itu
syurganya..

Tolong ingatkan si dia. Aku terpikat
kerana imannya bukan rupa..
Tolong ingatkan si dia. Aku lebih
cintakan zuhudnya bukan harta..
Tolong ingatkan si dia aku kasihinya
kerana santunnya..

Tolong tegur si dia, bila dia mula
mengagungkan cinta manusia..
Tolong tegur si dia, bila dia tenggelam
dalam angan-angannya..
Tolong tegur si dia, andai nafsu
mengawal fikirannya..

Tolong sedarkan si dia. Aku milik Yang
Maha Esa..
Tolong sedarkan si dia. Aku masih milik
keluarga..
Tolong sedarkan si dia, tanggungjawabnya
besar kepada keluarganya..

Tolong sabarkan si dia, usah ucap cinta
di kala cita-cita belum terlaksana..
Tolong sabarkan si dia, andai diri ini
enggan dirapati kerana menjaga batasan
cinta..
Tolong sabarkan si dia, bila jarak
mejadi penyebab bertambah rindunya..

Tolong pesan padanya. Aku tidak mahu
menjadi fitnah besar kepadanya..
Tolong pesan padanya. Aku tak mahu
menjadi punca kegagalannya..
Tolong pesan padanya aku membiarkan Yang
Esa menjaga dirinya..

Tolong khabarkan pada si dia. Aku tidak
mahu melekakan dia..
Tolong khabarkan pada si dia. Aku mahu
dia berjaya dalam impian dan cita-citanya..
Tolong khabarkan pada si dia, jadilah
penyokong dalam kejayaanku..

Tolong sampaikan pada si dia. Aku
mendambakan cinta suci yang terjaga..
Tolong sampaikan pada si dia,cinta
kerana Allah tidak ternilai harganya..
Tolong sampaikan pada si dia, hubungan
ini terjaga selagi dia menjaga hubungan
dengan Yang Maha Kuasa..
Tolong sampaikan kepada si dia kerana
aku tidak mampu memberitahunya sendiri...

Hanya engkau Ya Allah mengetahui siapa
si dia..
Moga pesananku sampai padanya walau aku
sendiri tidak mengetahui siapa dan
dimana si dia..
Moga dia seekor lebah yang sentiasa
memuji keagungan Yang Maha Kuasa
memasuki taman larangan dengan sopan
santunnya dan bertemu mawar berduri yang
terjaga oleh tuannya..
Simpanlah pesanan ku ini sehingga engkau
bertemu diriku suatu hari nanti...

p/s buat kawan2: texts are not ideologically natural or accidental, they are crafted to represent views as well as interests of the writer (Sommer, 2005). kpd kwn2 muslimah, bersabarlah jika dirimu belum di'jumpai' oleh sang lebah. jgnlah kau risaukan nye kerana janji Allah tetap akan tertunai. "PEREMPUAN YANG BAIK UNTUK LELAKI YANG BAIK (DAN SEBALIKNYA)DAN PEREMPUAN TIDAK BAIK UNTUK LELAKI YANG TIDAK BAIK(DAN SEBALIKNYA)"
jgnlah kau merendahkan maruahmu hanya untuk mendapat perhatian dari sang lelaki.. krana lelaki yang baik xkan memilih perempuan2 di jalanan untuk menjadi peneman perjuangan nya..

..kerana aku ingin menjadi wanita solehah..

Ya Allah,
Izinkan daku menjadi sekuntum bunga,
Yang dihiasi dengan kelopak akhlaq mulia,
Harum wanginya dengan ilmu agama,
Cantiknya kerana iman dan taqwa,

Namun keindahan zahirnya ku simpan rapi,
Biar menjadi rahsia yang kekal abadi,
Bukan perhatian mata ajnabi,
Yang menjadi punca fitnah hati,

Ya Allah,
Timbulkanlah duri yang memagari diri,
Agar diriku terpelihara dari noda duniawi,
Yang akan menghilangkan keharuman sejati,
Yang akan memudarkan kecantikan diri,

Disebalik kekurangan yang tercipta,
Bukanlah alasan untuk bermuram durja,
Kerana setiap yang tercipta ada hikmahnya,
Izinkan ya Allah agarku menjadi permata,
Tetap menyinar walau di lumpur hina,
Tetap berharga walau dimana saja,
Buat ummah dan juga keluarga,

Izinkan daku menjadi seindah mawar berduri,
Yang menjadi impian setiap muslimah,
Yang indahnya bukan untuk lelaki,
Tapi permata buat yang bernama suami...

Edcoustic - menjadi diriku

Menjadi diriku
( edcoustic )

Tak seperti bintang di langit
Tak seperti indah pelangi
Karena diriku bukanlah mereka Ku apa adanya
Wajahku kan memang begini
Sikapku jelas tak sempurna
Ku akui ku bukanlah mereka Ku apa adanya

Menjadi diriku dengan segala kekurangan
Menjadi diriku atas kelebihannku
Terimalah aku Seperti apa adanya
Aku hanya insan biasa
Aku tak sempurna

Tetap ku bangga Atas apa yang ku punya
Setiap waktu ku nikmati
Anugerah Hidup Yang ku miliki